I've often wondered, as have many others before me, why certain things happen to us, or others. This morning the concept of one's lot seems to have lingered in my head for contemplation. There have been people who have written about how in the premortal existence we were preordained, foreordained, and/or chosen to accomplish certain things in this probationary life. I don't believe this only applies to people who are meant to be leaders among us. I love to speculate, and part of my comtemplating the mysteries of God is speculating whether something is this way or another. As events occur in my life or with someone dear to me, I wonder the "why" of the cause and effect.
While I was in Brazil last month, it dawned on me that for most things happening to others, there's simply nothing I can do about them. And being a control freak, this despairs my heart like nothing else. But then the same thought kept coming: There's nothing you can or should do about it. Let's be clear, in terms of an action to remediate the situation there's nothing I can or should do about it. I can only pray, for those who need the divine help, and pray that my heart can let go of the despair. So today I hit this concept once again, why do things happen to certain people and sometimes don't seem to stop happening?
In a worldly sense, some say that the thing will happen to us until we figure it out. That if we're stupid enough to never deal with it or learn from it, it'll just keep coming back. I wonder if in a spiritual sense, the same applies. As I tried to search the scriptures a bit more about the concept of lots I could only come with this: In Proverbs it says something about lots being cast and the disposing of them being of the Lord. Does this mean that He actually ends up choosing, or that he only approves the cast? I believe that we have a few things to do in this probationary period that we promised we would do. I wonder if we cast our own lots to accomplish certain things. I wonder some times if some spirits were stronger than others, and how all that played with the lots "being approved by the Lord". If he knew we could all accomplish only certain things, so he had to revise a few of those castings. We've all heard about the stronger and more valiant were meant to come in the last days, maybe that has something to do with lots.
Yet it still leaves my main question somewhat unanswered: Why do things happen to some people? I feel at times, that despite my own trials, I lead a wonderful life and I'm extremely blessed. In fact sometimes, we in our family, we joke about having a star on our forehead. I've had many trials, most of which, have refined me and made me the person that I am today. The more I have them, the more I learn, so I have acquired kind of an addiction to suffering (albeit very small suffering) because I know I can only get better and better with age. The fact that I do have a blessed life, at times scares me for the future. There are certain trials I simply don't think I can recover from, and I constantly pray that they never happen. But what if they will because they are meant to happen? What are the trials in our lives that we think we can't survive from? Maybe it is good to consider them and contemplate on how we can deal with them....
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