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So I think everyone that knows me personally knows I've had a tough time being a mother. Not just being a mother, but being a good mother, happy, patient, willing to spend time with my children. I love my children to death. I'd rather die than not have them, I spoil them, I kiss them and hug them and tell them I love them all the time. But, it's has been a great struggle for me, not having my career. The last 18 months have been the hardest time of my life, and a lot had to do with my internal struggle of having stopped working. But that's a whole other blog post.

As an artist, I mean, a creative person. I like to really keep that term to painters and sculptors, I've been worried that my children won't have a chance to be creative because the educational system we all grow up in, is not conducive to art. That's also another blog post and it is coming. So I get worried, and I want them to draw and color and express themselves as much as possible. I feel that way because I didn't get to do that until I was in college. Isn't that sad?! I mean I took pottery and photography in high school, but really, those classes don't help you express yourself.

So today as I got back from working out and was getting ready to start today's rounds of cleaning up the house (I have a thing with clutter, I can't stand it), I noticed this:




This obviously was not done by Mike, or Bella. So it had to have been Isaac. Previously I have posted pictures of some of Isaac's works of art, mainly on himself as he drew with a highlighter all over his face. I have failed however, to truly document these findings. I had to laugh when I saw this because to me this is his work of art, his creation, his way of expressing himself and his creativity. I have to clean it up now. I put the salt grinder back on the counter by the pepper grinder and there's was a bit more mess with the peppers which I also have to clean.

But this was Beautiful! An inspired thought came to me when I saw it, and it was that I need to document my own children's lives. Here I am, having started a photography business to document other people's kids, and although I take a lot of cute pictures of my own kids, I'm not documenting these priceless events that occur everyday. Consequently I feel the guilt of "wasting" my time at home when I could be feeding my ego by continuing my career.




Trust me, I still have a long ways to go, my inner struggle is grand. But I loved my new idea and I love that my son is showing his creativity, even if it is on our kitchen table. I thought the composition turned out really good. Oh, and note that he even put some salt inside the vase......

More to come as he grows...